Hey guys, this is sort of a weird question/topic, but...I want to ask it anyways. How is everyone's personal life on this website? Reason I ask, I have been active in some way shape or form in this "community" since I was 14. I am now 28. I have never had a girlfriend, ever. I have gone on several dates. I have had two very important women in my life, one who wronged me so hard that I refuse to say her name or anyone who shares her name. Another who is my best friend, who despite two marriage proposals by myself, and our close, emotional relationship, she refuses to leave her abusive boyfriend and the father of her two kids.

http://rudiciuscaesar.deviantart.com/

That is my DeviantArt page, that is who I am. I have spent years studying in college, 8 years, have 3 degrees now. Can't find a job, go figure. So I work at a Toys R Us, but I love it there. Minus the childlike manager, constant screaming and people throwing shit at each other (I mean coworkers, basically we almost have a fist fight once a week). I recently got into it with a coworker of mine, in a sorta dating way. Things are now nasty and we're fighting. This is the third time something like this has happened to me.

Everyone is so shocked to learn that I have no lady experience considering I flirt with every girl, I project this "ladies man" image, that is entirely intentional, but everyone says I do. But on the core level, I have no experience or people in my life and can't help but feel I never will. Is it because of my fetish? Is it because I lack some fundamental personality trait? Or is this the destiny of a preggo-lover? Are we meant to be denied at every turn or is it just me? A lot of my friends who are in this same community, are in the same boat. Women either burn them terribly, or they don't even try at all because they're too afraid.

I am just very curious because I am this close, this fucking close, to giving up on women altogether. I have more or less resigned myself to the fate of dying alone. And when that comes up, why live? Why live when you KNOW you're going to be alone for ever? Why not cut to the chase and just kill yourself and not drag it out? Now, I'm not suicidal or anything, if I committed suicide, my religion calls for my beheading and to be buried in two separate spots with a blank tomb stone. The shame that I would bring to my clan would be insurmountable.

But I can't help but feel it will NEVER get easier. Never get better. And then, I start to feel cruel, angry, arrogant. "It's just because women are inferior, they're not capable of understanding us!" or "Women are just too uncivilized to be with me." Shit like that pops into my head, as my brain attempts to cope with this bullshit. I come from an abusive family, physically mainly, and have a whole host of other issues. Sometimes I feel they are what keeps women away, sometimes I feel it's my fetish. But honestly, I don't know why this happens.

I am not trying to offend anyone, I do NOT believe that are inferior. Women are amazing, beautiful, some can be smart, some can be blithering idiots, like men. Women are creators, men are destroyers, we are naturally built for those two functions. So, please, if there is anyone who is in my shoes, please reply to this, let me hear your story. If there is someone who has gone through this and come out on the other side in a better condition, please give me a little hope to hold onto.

Thank you for taking the time to read this bullshit.

I read it. Sounds pretty shit man. Don't give up though, honestly it sounds cliche but there is always someone out there, you just haven't found em yet.

Well my love life is non existent. I am not a bad looking guy and not fat, geeky, or any other stereotype you think of when you think of single guys. I also do not live in my mother's basement. I am a full time law student and have never been able to even get dates.
At this point I obviously do not believe in love. I think that it is a fallacy. It is a lie that some people believe in but it is that, a lie. I have never been loved nor will I ever be loved.

(December 3, 2016, 8:32 pm)PatricksPrivate7 I read it. Sounds pretty shit man. Don't give up though, honestly it sounds cliche but there is always someone out there, you just haven't found em yet.

See, that is all I ever get. My best friend sometimes accuses me of not trying hard enough, then says I need to wait and love with find me. She then gets jealous and hates any girl who gets close to me. Like the girl who I'm fighting with at work, my bestie warned me she was dangerous and to stay away from her. Now I'm in hot water with a coworker, great. Fantastic. However, I will probably fix that tomorrow, I'm pretty sure neither of us will hate each other.

But another thing, my religion says that when God makes a soul, he splits it in two and gives one part to one person and another to someone else. Those two are separated by distance, age, and more, but they are to naturally come together and when they get married, we get literally wedding crowns as symbolism that simply affirms God's design, that these two souls returned together and became one. That idea is SOOO ingrained in my mind, I've believed it all my life, so this constant failure really, really makes me lose faith each time.

I do believe in love. I also believe that love is a weakness and people shouldn't get married. You should be able to write a girl a letter like "You're cute, I want to have sex with you." And get a formal answer lol. Because love, love makes you a slave if there is even a SHRED of imbalance. And that imbalance, I have been on the receiving end of it 3 times now and I have HAD it. I am so angry about it that I would love to inflict the imbalance on someone else, just to fulfill my own misery.

Not to mention...I am very fickle. I lose interest in people very quickly. Anyone who doesn't meet my artistic requirements or my intelligence requirements and is nothing but a pretty face, or even remotely interesting, I will lose interest. My best friend is pretty sharp but she is phenomenal artist. The current girl I am looking towards, she's kind of a dumb ass but very talented artistically and she has a wonderful personality.

I just feel like I'm aging too much, losing my chance at life. I don't want to be in my 40s, marrying a mail order wife and having kids with her only to die and never see my kids grow up or have grandkids. That terrifies me.

(December 3, 2016, 10:59 pm)Rudwah

(December 3, 2016, 8:32 pm)PatricksPrivate7 I read it. Sounds pretty shit man. Don't give up though, honestly it sounds cliche but there is always someone out there, you just haven't found em yet.

See, that is all I ever get. My best friend sometimes accuses me of not trying hard enough, then says I need to wait and love with find me. She then gets jealous and hates any girl who gets close to me. Like the girl who I'm fighting with at work, my bestie warned me she was dangerous and to stay away from her. Now I'm in hot water with a coworker, great. Fantastic. However, I will probably fix that tomorrow, I'm pretty sure neither of us will hate each other.

But another thing, my religion says that when God makes a soul, he splits it in two and gives one part to one person and another to someone else. Those two are separated by distance, age, and more, but they are to naturally come together and when they get married, we get literally wedding crowns as symbolism that simply affirms God's design, that these two souls returned together and became one. That idea is SOOO ingrained in my mind, I've believed it all my life, so this constant failure really, really makes me lose faith each time.

I do believe in love. I also believe that love is a weakness and people shouldn't get married. You should be able to write a girl a letter like "You're cute, I want to have sex with you." And get a formal answer lol. Because love, love makes you a slave if there is even a SHRED of imbalance. And that imbalance, I have been on the receiving end of it 3 times now and I have HAD it. I am so angry about it that I would love to inflict the imbalance on someone else, just to fulfill my own misery.

Not to mention...I am very fickle. I lose interest in people very quickly. Anyone who doesn't meet my artistic requirements or my intelligence requirements and is nothing but a pretty face, or even remotely interesting, I will lose interest. My best friend is pretty sharp but she is phenomenal artist. The current girl I am looking towards, she's kind of a dumb ass but very talented artistically and she has a wonderful personality.

I just feel like I'm aging too much, losing my chance at life. I don't want to be in my 40s, marrying a mail order wife and having kids with her only to die and never see my kids grow up or have grandkids. That terrifies me.

I've never heard the part about God separating souls. I am a born again Christian and have never heard that one. Maybe I missed something, lol. What makes it worse for me is that because I don't have a woman to love me, I am more tempted to look at porn and give into my pregnancy fetish, which is extremely sinful. I pray that I can fight that sinful desires. I know my fetish is leading me to burn in hell.

I'm Eastern Orthodox, we believe God creates souls and then splits them, not to say that they aren't whole, or complete, but more like duplicates them. From Adam's rib came Eve, from Adam's original soul, Eve's soul. See that's our rationale.

And our fetish is not sinful. It's just lustful, which is a sin but the fetish itself is not. It's ok to masturbate, watch camgirls, and indulge. We're not committing murder. We're not blowing up children, or stoning women. God has more shit to deal with then just some dudes wanking to preggos lol.

And I have never had a girl love me. Never had anyone tell me that they love me, romantically. At all. I do not know that feeling. So I sympathize with you.

Sorry to hear that then.

As an Atheist I've never heard of the two split soul thing either.

(December 3, 2016, 11:20 pm)Rudwah I'm Eastern Orthodox, we believe God creates souls and then splits them, not to say that they aren't whole, or complete, but more like duplicates them. From Adam's rib came Eve, from Adam's original soul, Eve's soul. See that's our rationale.

And our fetish is not sinful. It's just lustful, which is a sin but the fetish itself is not. It's ok to masturbate, watch camgirls, and indulge. We're not committing murder. We're not blowing up children, or stoning women. God has more shit to deal with then just some dudes wanking to preggos lol.

And I have never had a girl love me. Never had anyone tell me that they love me, romantically. At all. I do not know that feeling. So I sympathize with you.

I know how you feel on that. I do agree on Adam and Eve but disagree on the masturbation stuff. The bible says it is a sin and leads to hell.
Of course this is a pregnancy fetish site and not a religious site so I am not arguing with you.
In the end, I wish I had a beautiful woman who loved me.

(December 4, 2016, 1:25 am)LovePreggies

(December 3, 2016, 11:20 pm)Rudwah I'm Eastern Orthodox, we believe God creates souls and then splits them, not to say that they aren't whole, or complete, but more like duplicates them. From Adam's rib came Eve, from Adam's original soul, Eve's soul. See that's our rationale.

And our fetish is not sinful. It's just lustful, which is a sin but the fetish itself is not. It's ok to masturbate, watch camgirls, and indulge. We're not committing murder. We're not blowing up children, or stoning women. God has more shit to deal with then just some dudes wanking to preggos lol.

And I have never had a girl love me. Never had anyone tell me that they love me, romantically. At all. I do not know that feeling. So I sympathize with you.

I know how you feel on that. I do agree on Adam and Eve but disagree on the masturbation stuff. The bible says it is a sin and leads to hell.
Of course this is a pregnancy fetish site and not a religious site so I am not arguing with you.
In the end, I wish I had a beautiful woman who loved me.

See, I agree with you but sins are to be forgiven. Masturbation is a forgivable sin, murder isn't. Not all sins are the same lol.

As for women, ugh. Like, here's the thing. This girl from work, she's 3 years younger than me. We went out for her birthday with some friends/coworkers. I didn't drink at all that night because the last time I went drinking with them in August, I almost died. I remember running through Pitt's campus, falling asleep on a bench in the rain, muttering in Chinese, and eventually throwing up EVERYWHERE.

But anyways, we were at this club, dancing, bouncers, all that. This girl...she started grinding on me and I shoved her off politely. I didn't want to have sexual relations with a girl who is drunk as fuck. That's dangerous. One, I want my first time with a lady to be important, to be memorable for both parties. Second, doing anything with a drunk girl leads to situations like "I was drunk, can't consent, I was raped." So there's that. I bailed on the club and ran back to Pitt's campus and got a ride home.

Then she says if we're going to do anything, she needs to be drunk. Self-esteem killer. She says it's simply because we work together and has nothing to do with me being unappealing to her. But now she says we can't hang out if it leads to me having feelings. However, my one friend is dating another coworker, and this girl I'm trying to get with said "You can't help who you like." So wait, here she is saying "people can't help who they love" and that she wants to continue our friendship, but that if it would lead to anything, then we need to stop. Yet...she touched me first. So, this is hypocrisy right?

Not to mention, wtf does she think is going to happen? We're going to go out to Wendy's, play footsies, then bone in my car? Wtf? Who does that? SUPER ROMANTIC AND SEXUALLY STIMULATING!!!

Am I just like...too paranoid or is she full of shit? Someone help me out here lol.

Well I am the last person to ask for dating advice since I have never been in a relationship and I haven't had sex in over a year and a half, but I think it would be best to just leave her alone. You can hang out but BE CAREFUL not to fall for her because if you do, you're fucked. That happened to me and it took me a year and a half to get over her. Chicks are so fucking contradictory and play so many games I have no clue what they think or want, so generally I avoid them, or I just flat ask them out then completely move on once they inevitably reject me.
I know that you wish someone would have a good answer for you, but I am in the exact same boat as you are. I feel your pain and suffer through the same thing you do, except I have less opportunities to meet people than you do.