I have not ever been in a relationship with a woman ever since I was a kid the idea of being with a woman did not interest me in the slightest so I've never tried to ask them out but I did have plenty of women who tried to make me their boyfriends I would politely turn them down simply because how can I be in a relationship if I'm not even attracted to them? If I wanted to be in a relationship I want them to feel like they're on top of the world.

For most of my life I never really bothered asking a girl out until junior year in high school when I had a pregnant class - to say the lest she was huge and I fucking loved it best part is she sat behind me so she often talked to me - mostly complaining her pregnancy and how big she was now I pretended to be sympathetic when in reality I was rock hard! This led me to stay in class after the bell rung (this created some awkward moments between me and the teacher). Everyday after class I was filled with fantasies of kissing her and rubbing her belly. These thoughts freaked me out because I never felt this way before but this cute pregnant girl is making my entire world spin, sadly since I've never felt this way I had no good idea how to approach her so I never did anything...

And now that I'm 18 free to do whatever I want and right now my mission is to find a pregnant woman or a woman with a fat round belly and see where that goes, the thing is I'm not even sure how to even do this, I don't know how to find a pregnant women who is single or a girl with a fat belly (which is surprisingly hard since I live in a state full of fat people). I don't know what to do but I want to do it now!

No man, your words are very accurate. I have been flat out asking this girl, she's given me answers. Our mutual friend, who has my side in this fight, she says our friend actually DOES like me, and does have feelings and she's afraid of getting back in a relationship because she just got out of an abusive relationship and she's afraid of getting into a relationship with a coworker. It's not that she doesn't like me as a person, or physically, or romantically, it's her own reservations and work. Legit, if she would go on a real date with me, I'd quit work or asked to be transferred. I work at a Toys R Us and the manager of the Babies R Us across the street adores me, I've covered shifts there before. I'd ask to be transferred there.

For the record, working at a Babies R Us fucking sucks dick. Beyond having to deal with boring product, most of your coworkers are young mothers with illegitimate children who need an employee discount to afford their children, OR those are your customers. Like, I'd say over there, at least 60% of all the customers that come in aren't married and have illegitimate kids. Then you get the stereotypical fat, nasty, Peter Griffin built boyfriend with the bombshell pregnant girlfriend, who he's not married to, because he's a fuck, and he's dismissive of the girlfriend. That makes me so angry and so jealous. Like, how do these walking Shit Lords get women? I mean, my best friend's boyfriend is huge fat slob, like 250 pounds and only 5'6", I'm 5'8" and 132lbs, I weigh less than almost all my female coworkers.

Back on the topic. I was in love with my best friend from age 20 to 27. I was side lined constantly. There is no way I'd fall in love that deeply again with another girl who side lined me. If this girl from work and I kept going out, I would just bury my feelings because A ) it would be easier, B ) she won't take the bait, C ) nothing can hurt more than what I went through with my best friend so I'm dumb enough to attempt that. But she's the initiator of a lot of this tension. I merely hold myself back because it is the right thing to do.

Relationships are generally a giant waste. The whole summer my friend, who wasn't single, was getting her face pummeled by her now ex, she'd swoon "I'm turning 25, I should be married with kids by now!" and I would reply "I'm 28 and have nothing, shut the fuck up." You think a logical person would settle, like I was willing to do. She's not perfect, she's not my dream girl, my best friend blows anyone out of the water on appearance ALONE, forget her to die for personality, but at least this girl from work has a very nice personality. Honestly, I do kinda love her and would love to share myself with her but she's in a nasty place right now and won't listen to reason. Or she's a woman. Women appear to not understand reason. At least all the ones I know since just about every single girl I know has been in an abusive relationship at least ONCE in their life. And I mean beatings, getting chocked the fuck out, emotional abuse, captivity, financial abuse, etc, etc. I can't name a single girl I know who hasn't suffered at least one of those. Maybe women are just weak...or maybe men are just evil? I don't know, jury is still out on that one.

(December 4, 2016, 8:37 pm)MrCoolesta I have not ever been in a relationship with a woman ever since I was a kid the idea of being with a woman did not interest me in the slightest so I've never tried to ask them out but I did have plenty of women who tried to make me their boyfriends I would politely turn them down simply because how can I be in a relationship if I'm not even attracted to them? If I wanted to be in a relationship I want them to feel like they're on top of the world.

For most of my life I never really bothered asking a girl out until junior year in high school when I had a pregnant class - to say the lest she was huge and I fucking loved it best part is she sat behind me so she often talked to me - mostly complaining her pregnancy and how big she was now I pretended to be sympathetic when in reality I was rock hard! This led me to stay in class after the bell rung (this created some awkward moments between me and the teacher). Everyday after class I was filled with fantasies of kissing her and rubbing her belly. These thoughts freaked me out because I never felt this way before but this cute pregnant girl is making my entire world spin, sadly since I've never felt this way I had no good idea how to approach her so I never did anything...

And now that I'm 18 free to do whatever I want and right now my mission is to find a pregnant woman or a woman with a fat round belly and see where that goes, the thing is I'm not even sure how to even do this, I don't know how to find a pregnant women who is single or a girl with a fat belly (which is surprisingly hard since I live in a state full of fat people). I don't know what to do but I want to do it now!

Oh boy, now let me tell you something. First, I am so sorry you never got a chance to talk to this girl and get close with her! I am so fucking sorry!!!

Second, finding pregnant ladies is not a thing. At least, not one I've seen. I have invested so much time and actual MONEY into finding them. They don't exist. Your best chance is to apply to a Babies R Us and hope you're made a cashier. That way you can mingle, develop a friendship with a regular customer, and look for rings. That's what I do at my job and it never fucking works. Ever. I flirt sometimes, but that's it. There's nothing to do.

2015's summer, I spent all summer calling around to like 8 different strip clubs in my area, as far away as 2 hour drives, looking for a pregnant stripper. Guess what? Found zero. 2014, I tried calling around the local escort agencies, we have 3, one was VERY offended when I asked if they had a pregnant escort. Another was very receptive but...they're socialite escorts, NO TOUCHING ALLOWED, and the other was just like "nah man, sorry." And ever since then, I've been too afraid to call.

I did call and get a regular one to come out, she was at least 10 years older than me, not pregnant, duh, didn't fake pregnant well to save her life and I lost 270 dollars for NOTHING. Because of that extremely traumatic experience, I can't call anymore. I am just too terrified. Also having high level social anxiety isn't helping since to us social phobics as we're called, the phone is easily the most dreadful thing. It is worse than addressing a crowd of people. On the phone, you can't see what you're talking to, addressing an audience is no big deal, you SEE them.

So you're 18? I wish all the luck to you, young man. I figured if I don't get with a pregnant lady in some way shape or form by 30, I'm just gonna retire and become a monk or priest.

Right now, I'm more in the neutral state when it comes to relationships. I've never had a girlfriend, but I was focused on other things. If I got a girlfriend cool, but if I don't, oh well. I'm that kind of guy that gives good advice,but I don't use my own advice since I'm not really a talkative guy. I've set up several of my friends and their relationships lasted. I've had many girls flirt with me, but I'm just not interested in them. I'm a little bit on the heavy side,but I'm not a huge guy. I'm 6'5" and it's tough to find a woman that is almost my height. If you want some honest advice, just pm me.

(December 5, 2016, 12:29 am)therock34 Right now, I'm more in the neutral state when it comes to relationships. I've never had a girlfriend, but I was focused on other things. If I got a girlfriend cool, but if I don't, oh well. I'm that kind of guy that gives good advice,but I don't use my own advice since I'm not really a talkative guy. I've set up several of my friends and their relationships lasted. I've had many girls flirt with me, but I'm just not interested in them. I'm a little bit on the heavy side,but I'm not a huge guy. I'm 6'5" and it's tough to find a woman that is almost my height. If you want some honest advice, just pm me.

Just give the advice here if you have any, if it benefits me, it will probably benefit others.

However, I went through that phase of my life where I was too busy for it. 8 years of college. I'm done. That part of my life is deader than Alexander the Great. I just want to check out on life and be done with it. If that means being alone, then whatever. If it means finally finding a girl, then that would be preferred. I'm just so butt hurt over all this. This has happened to me 3 times now and each time it permanently damages me more and more.

Like, I went into this with this girl knowing FULL FUCKING WELL that she would disappoint me or at least hurt me. Never expected it to get this bad but it's still nothing compared to the pain I suffered in 2008. That pain was so unreal that I can barely recall it, just that it happened.

Between having to worry about normal relationship issues, having to fight through the minefield of mentalities, personalities, and moralities, you have to then handle sexuality, which isn't the easiest subject for guys like us. It just seems so futile altogether. Like, legit, my only hope for ever achieving anything relationship based would be if prostitution was made legal and regulated by the government so I could submit a form requesting a pregnant lady lmao.

That would be so fucking dope.

Jokes aside, people are always so shocked to learn how miserable I am on the inside and just like a few weeks ago, I was finally beginning to settle into the social-death of my life with grace and enjoyment.

I highly doubt your fetish has anything to do with you meeting the right girl but then again Im not qualified to say either way. I myself am 32, I have a combined business and langages degree and a host of other certificates, Im currently in a middle mamangement job working for my state government. I married the girl of my dreams and we recently had our first child together, a son. My wife knows about my fetish and would always dress up with a belly for me. When she fell pregnant earlier in the year we were both excited. She let me do anything I wanted during the pregnancy, she even encouraged me. So no, if you play your cards right you can explore your fetish with the right girl. Tip for you though, dont put your heart on your sleeve. Girls pick up on despiration and that will put them off. I decided back in the day to just live for myself and stopped actively chasing girls and 6 months later I met my wife. We're all different people here but I hope my experience helps, even if it is only a little.

(December 4, 2016, 10:26 pm)Rudwah

(December 4, 2016, 8:37 pm)MrCoolesta I have not ever been in a relationship with a woman ever since I was a kid the idea of being with a woman did not interest me in the slightest so I've never tried to ask them out but I did have plenty of women who tried to make me their boyfriends I would politely turn them down simply because how can I be in a relationship if I'm not even attracted to them? If I wanted to be in a relationship I want them to feel like they're on top of the world.

For most of my life I never really bothered asking a girl out until junior year in high school when I had a pregnant class - to say the lest she was huge and I fucking loved it best part is she sat behind me so she often talked to me - mostly complaining her pregnancy and how big she was now I pretended to be sympathetic when in reality I was rock hard! This led me to stay in class after the bell rung (this created some awkward moments between me and the teacher). Everyday after class I was filled with fantasies of kissing her and rubbing her belly. These thoughts freaked me out because I never felt this way before but this cute pregnant girl is making my entire world spin, sadly since I've never felt this way I had no good idea how to approach her so I never did anything...

And now that I'm 18 free to do whatever I want and right now my mission is to find a pregnant woman or a woman with a fat round belly and see where that goes, the thing is I'm not even sure how to even do this, I don't know how to find a pregnant women who is single or a girl with a fat belly (which is surprisingly hard since I live in a state full of fat people). I don't know what to do but I want to do it now!

Oh boy, now let me tell you something. First, I am so sorry you never got a chance to talk to this girl and get close with her! I am so fucking sorry!!!

Second, finding pregnant ladies is not a thing. At least, not one I've seen. I have invested so much time and actual MONEY into finding them. They don't exist. Your best chance is to apply to a Babies R Us and hope you're made a cashier. That way you can mingle, develop a friendship with a regular customer, and look for rings. That's what I do at my job and it never fucking works. Ever. I flirt sometimes, but that's it. There's nothing to do.

2015's summer, I spent all summer calling around to like 8 different strip clubs in my area, as far away as 2 hour drives, looking for a pregnant stripper. Guess what? Found zero. 2014, I tried calling around the local escort agencies, we have 3, one was VERY offended when I asked if they had a pregnant escort. Another was very receptive but...they're socialite escorts, NO TOUCHING ALLOWED, and the other was just like "nah man, sorry." And ever since then, I've been too afraid to call.

I did call and get a regular one to come out, she was at least 10 years older than me, not pregnant, duh, didn't fake pregnant well to save her life and I lost 270 dollars for NOTHING. Because of that extremely traumatic experience, I can't call anymore. I am just too terrified. Also having high level social anxiety isn't helping since to us social phobics as we're called, the phone is easily the most dreadful thing. It is worse than addressing a crowd of people. On the phone, you can't see what you're talking to, addressing an audience is no big deal, you SEE them.

So you're 18? I wish all the luck to you, young man. I figured if I don't get with a pregnant lady in some way shape or form by 30, I'm just gonna retire and become a monk or priest.

Thanks but we became close friends after she had her child, without her belly I wasn't attracted to her so it was real easy talking to her, I just wished I was that confident when she was pregnant! But oh well can't change that.

I figured that it would be very hard to find a pregnant woman or a cutie with a belly, but I'm too determined to let that stop me! Really if I don't do this I'd be driven to insanity, bellies is something that I want and if I don't get it my I begin to lose my sanity. I don't plan on spending much money on this venture but if I have to then I will if that means I'm inches away from touching a woman's belly.

I've been thinking about working there but I work at a repair shop at a dealership and I'm getting paid fairly well, then again I've always told my parents I would like a second job... *smirks*

(December 5, 2016, 1:59 am)eternaldarknesss I highly doubt your fetish has anything to do with you meeting the right girl but then again Im not qualified to say either way. I myself am 32, I have a combined business and langages degree and a host of other certificates, Im currently in a middle mamangement job working for my state government. I married the girl of my dreams and we recently had our first child together, a son. My wife knows about my fetish and would always dress up with a belly for me. When she fell pregnant earlier in the year we were both excited. She let me do anything I wanted during the pregnancy, she even encouraged me. So no, if you play your cards right you can explore your fetish with the right girl. Tip for you though, dont put your heart on your sleeve. Girls pick up on despiration and that will put them off. I decided back in the day to just live for myself and stopped actively chasing girls and 6 months later I met my wife. We're all different people here but I hope my experience helps, even if it is only a little.

See, that's inspiring and I hope that works out for me.

However, I don't wear my emotions on my sleeves. I have crafted an entirely, almost fictional persona for the outside, public world. Nor am I actually that desperate for a woman because I am so deeply entrenched in the idea that there is NO woman for me. I am fickle and lose interest in women easily, unless they have the personality I look for. Good looks don't account for much if you can't get their number.

I have "given up" on looking since 2014 and I thought this new girl might have been that one I meet, like as you said, you stopped actively chasing, met the mrs. 6 months later. I stopped actively chasing in August 2014, met this girl June 2016, thought it was gonna work out and bam, fucked it all up because I had to be honest about my feelings.

Guilt weighs heavy of me with this.

Hmmm, sounds like you've worked yourself into such a state it may be very hard to get yourself into a better frame of mind. I can certainly sympathise with you in creating a face for the world which is separate from the real you what with the superficial way this world is these days.

If there is one thing I've learnt over the years it is to just be yourself, those of like mind will find you and also to keep moving forward. As you're well invested in your current situation (false face to the world, requiring the right kind of girl, certain that theres nothing left for you) I would recommend professional help. They will not judge you like friends and girlfriends and should be able to help you.

The fact that you have identified your demons and actively seeking help on this forum is a positive step forward on the road to recovery and change. I had someone deliver a tonne of bricks over my head one day in a simple, passing comment that finally made me realise I was in a stuffed up situation. I had to do something to change my life or I would have gone off the rails. Hopefully this is the tonne of bricks you need to keep moving forward and start living life the way the real you should be.

Good luck mate!

Well, today after seeing my therapist, I was given tons of confidence but our mutual friend said that this girl said she's not sure if she's going to allow this to continue. First today she said she would get back to me and said she was respecting me on this. Now she's going back and forth again. My therapist said this girl is both dangerous and beneficial to me as she is an abuse victim like me, I don't have to explain my past and worry about the immediate rejection and revulsion it causes people.I am merely trying to treat this girl right, the way she was NEVER treated before.

I don't know how to handle this at all anymore. Like, I've faced academic failure twice and survived, somehow, I've faced two women, one who actively attempted to ruin my life/end it, and one who unintentionally did near irreparable damage, and I've faced my parents. Now, I have to face this constant back and forth with this girl and I am tired, and old compared to her. I have a feeling tomorrow will be my last day at my job. And I love working there. But if I have to work with someone who won't respect me enough to have an adult conversation with me, and expects me to pretend she doesn't exist, well, fuck me. Might as well hang myself at work, rather than you know, actually DO work lol.

I'm tired. I need to sleep now.