I try all the time to kick it, as far as things go. It doesn't make any sense for me to have it and brings me literally no end of emotional distress on a borderline constant basis. I can stave it off for a few months at a time, then I get trashed and see a celeb's pregnant and immediately go to pphilia on reflex to check out the progression. I hate every second of it and wish I could just cut it out like the goddamn tumor it is for me.

But hey, if you've figured out a way to enjoy it, props to ya, honestly.

Why is it such a negative experience for you? What's wrong with enjoying a pregnant celebrity's progression, having a good wank or whatever it is you need to do? Is the problem that you feel like it's OCD and you have to do it, or it won't get out of your head?

No. I'm ace, so it's not even a sexual thing. I can't begin to figure out what the hell it is, no matter how hard I try. There's no actual enjoyment, so I have no clue why I have to keep coming back to participate, but I do, every goddamn time. It's like an addiction that doesn't even have the benefit of any actual positive feedback for me, and that's coming from someone who's been addicted to her fair share of drugs.

Oh. Fuck. Sorry man. I mistakenly assumed there was at least some gratification, some reward for indulging. I really don't know what to say.

(October 28, 2016, 2:04 pm)janaie13 It's like an addiction that doesn't even have the benefit of any actual positive feedback for me, and that's coming from someone who's been addicted to her fair share of drugs.

Yep, I got it very good. Certaianly, it IS not a sexual thing. Personally I take it as @the power of belly@ over me and it is really brings some feel of humiliation for me. But the humiliation, the feel of my weakness before pregnancy of woman is the most striking pleasure to me. Somewhere we are strong ones somewhere we are weaklings - and it is the miracle of life. Seeing a 9 months preggo belly makes me a brainless wordless zombie and it is really cool.

Try to feel the same way. Succumb. Give it up. Let your Ego to die inside a belly of woman- and I swear yoy will be rebirthed.

Over 20 years collecting and nearly 2 TB of videos, tons on sexual escapades...something that always brings me enjoyment....Nope never even a though