I hate having everything I've ever desired since childhood be so possible yet so unobtainable. I have a womb, I have ovaries. Could I get as pregnant as I write or read about? Obviously not. But I would be grateful just to carry one and least one time.                                                                        

But realistically I'm not a good candidate to have children and adoption isn't a simple matter. I don't think I could grow a baby for nine months and give it up, it would be mental torture. And even if I could it's really immoral to create a baby just for a physical desire and then abandon it. I could end up pregnant with triplets and while that sounds like A FUCKING DREAM COME TRUE, that's three lives I've created. 

One day my ovaries will dry up and I'll have never experienced pregnancy. Imagine having some crazy fetish like you want to fuck a dinosaur and it's impossible, will never happen. Now imagine having your fetish be not only legal but very much possible, but you simply cannot ever indulge in it. Imagine walking through the desert and finding an oasis that's actually there, it's not a mirage, and you simply can't get to it. And as the clock ticks it slips farther away until my life is nothing but regret because I never got to have a huge pregnant belly covered in stretch marks (I love them) and matching lactating tits. I never got to feel a baby kick and stretch my lips over its head. I'd trade being a multi millionaire hugely successful and influential person for being a baby factory. I wish I could have been pregnant from my teen years and pop em out every year. I wish I could just experience it once, so badly, so fucking badly. Of course I wish more than anything pregnancy stories were possible. Hyper pregnancy, Quintuplets and Growing, that about sums up my dream life. Or The Baby Explosion, holy fuck the ending being pregnant with thousands of babies and getting gallons of cum pumped into me and thinking about nothing but breeding. I'd be so grateful just to carry one but if I got triplets I'd cry in happiness every day. I'd be constantly oiling and rubbing the fuck out of my belly and I'd share pictures of it proudly with everyone here. I WANT the pains, the aches, stretch marks, I want to be kept up all night by my babies kicking hard and stretching, I want my belly to make me as uncomfortable as possible. 

I'm so desperate I've actually been trying to induce a psuedo pregnancy. Where your belly grows huge, you get a popped navel, you lactate, you feel a baby kicking. You don't get birth but you get everything else and believe you're pregnant. Why is it I can't when the main trigger for it is desperately wanting to be pregnant? Someone on pregchan suggested I get a trusted male to sort of fake cum into me, but how can I trick my subconscious? Pregnant belly hypnosis and stuff like that hasn't been doing shit, those asshole commenters get my hopes up thinking I can be hypnotized to feel hugely pregnant and it does nothing! I listened to a subliminal loop for two freaking hours and nothing. 

Sorry I just needed to vent to people who I think will understand and not judge me. I'm starting to get hardcore depressed and pregnancy obsessed worse than I ever have. I often wish I was born in the 50's or in some traditional society where I could just be pregnant all the time. Where I could be nursing with a huge pregnant belly and no end in sight. I absolutely want to be nothing more than a living baby factory, dedicating my entire life to making as many babies as I can.

Become a surrogate for a couple that can't conceive.

I don't want to carry a baby and give it away. Also you have to had a successful pregnancy.

I feel you preggpixie, and while I don’t have the equipment to carry a child I do often feel like the longer I wait to have kids the less likely it is for me to have them. So I have tried to find jobs and hobbies that I love and can be passionate about and am fulfilled by, while I try to find a partner who I want raise kids with or could be my emotional support while we do surrogacy.
On the other hand this seems like your desire/need to be pregnant is starting to mess with your quality of life and that is not healthy and I would strongly recommend seeing a therapist about it, as someone with several mental health issues and has been in therapy for years I can say it has helped me a lot but it also may not be what you need too so if you want to vent feel free to pm me, and I can be at least a sounding board for you to try and figure things out on your own if you want. You are not alone in your feelings and they are valid.

If you'd like to share more of your story, then this community is here to support you.

Wow I'm really touched by your responses. I want to see a therapist but it's really embarrassing to talk about with people who don't understand. I feel more comfortable talking to other fetishists than I do a professional. Because even though lately I've had a yearning for motherhood, something that was never a part of my desires, there's still the physical "baby factory" aspect that they would not get. Most people can't fathom a woman wanting to be immensely pregnant with stretch marks and swollen feet, etc., or wanting to feel the pain of birth.

My passion is gaming and for several weeks I've been unable to even enjoy it. Every time I go to play something I can't help but fantasize about pregnancy and it makes the game unplayable since I can't focus. Whatever I'm doing, work, cooking, gaming, talking to anyone, literally every moment I'm fantasizing about what I really want. I've always done so since my childhood but I was able to focus when I needed to. It's probably my ticking clock that's made these desires more intense than ever, which worries me because it can only get worse.

When people reflect back on their lives, they generally regret not doing the things they wanted to do, rather than doing things they weren't sure if they wanted.

In other words: you only get one life, and you clearly desperately want this... I think you should go for it. (I'm nobody, this is just my reaction.)

If you really think there's no way you could carry a fetus for 9 months and then hand it off to someone else, then scrap that whole idea and prepare for parenthood. Don't look at it as a consequence or side effect of your engaging in your kink - it's going to be its own journey. Most humans reproduce, so it's not like you'd be doing something out of the ordinary. It'd be novel for you personally, sure, but it's a very typical part of a human existence. I hear you saying you're not a good candidate to have children, but uhh, the fact that you can even consider that perhaps says otherwise, at least in some small way.

I'm a cis male who doesn't produce sperm due to some medical stuff. So I can't even get someone pregnant and enjoy it by proxy. I hear your situation and it makes me quite envious of the opportunity you have. I don't mean that as a guilt thing, I just mean to say that you've been given a gift and you have every right to like.. open it and enjoy it.

Again, there are many considerations, and I'm talking out of my ass because as I said, my life circumstances are wildly different from yours. But if I were you and I felt that same burning desire? I'd try to find a way to make it happen...

   

(October 5, 2021, 1:30 pm)Akhenaten I hear you saying you're not a good candidate to have children, but uhh, the fact that you can even consider that perhaps says otherwise, at least in some small way.

I imagine most terrible parents think and tell others they are the greatest parents in the history of parenting.

I agree Akhenaten, and I agree that a portion of OPs’ is biological, but from her earlier post it really is making it hard for her to live normally and that really worries me because I have personally seen what this kind of single minded thinking can do and it also reads like she has depression because of the need to be pregnant and so I don’t think becoming a mother will help, at least not without some professional assistance anyway. All in all I am worried for her and any kids wellbeing if she gets pregnant just to fulfill a sexual need. Any I know this post sounds kind of negative but if you think you can make a good mom then disregard this post and go for it preggopixie! Wishing you the best!

I could try to look at it from an angle of making a couple's dream come true. If I could break the first barrier and be okay with parting, I could actually be pregnant more than once. Do you guys think it's wrong to get pregnant on purpose knowing I would not be keeping it? I could possibly be a surrogate for my dear friend and his fiance because she's terrified of pregnancy. Maybe if it didn't come from my egg I could more easily. Part of the kink, which I know is odd, is having my eggs fertilized by sperm, preferably the old fashioned way. Maybe a sterile lab could in a weird way help me just enjoy pregnancy and be okay with handing them their child. If I can think of it as THEIR child you know what I mean?

I really appreciate the encouraging words telling me I can be a mom but I truthfully have no business doing so. My parents had no business doing so either and I can recognize people that should not have children. It's not a lack of self confidence, I'm painfully aware of the reality. And honestly with my family history my DNA has no business being replicated. Feunski is right, 100%.

You know I used to have a childfree mindset? For most of my life I've been a childfree gravidophile, like a vegetarian butcher. I wish I could just go back to that and take the opportunity to have my friend's baby for him with no fear.