I normally don't post on here but I thought I'd share my story and struggles with my pregnancy fetish since I feel so alone about it and have never really come out about it to people. I am a 20 year old male from Massachusetts in an amazing business school, I work an accounting job at a non-profit that I am passionate about, and I will be out of college with 0 debt. Life seems to be good, but little does anyone around me know that I am depressed because of a pregnancy fetish. For example, my Dad asks me why I'm feeling down, yet I can't tell him it is because of my pregnancy fetish because then he'd probably think different of me.
What eats me up inside the most is the fact I can successfully hookup or date a hot girl from a dating app, yet have 0 success with the MANY pregnant women I've texted on dating apps. Like these single pregnant women tell me I'm sweet, text back and fourth, and think I'm cute, yet when it comes down to hanging out... it never happens. I honestly couldn't tell you why, sometimes there's a distinct reason, but most of the time there isn't. This is why I am so depressed about it, because these perfect opportunities that CLEARLY are attracted to me REFUSE to hangout! Obviously they don't have to hangout with me, it just makes me depressed I've had 0 success with the amount of opportunities I've had. Eventually time runs out, they give birth, and I cry and feel defeated. Another opportunity down the drain that would've EASILY met up with me if they weren't pregnant. Yeah I'm lucky I can hookup with non-pregnant hot girls, but it's not very enjoyable to me because they aren't pregnant, it's hard to describe. I have meet up with one pregnant women, but at the time I was inexperienced and didn't make the move to fuck her. She told me I was way too good looking and I'm wasting my time with a pregnant girl like her, yet little did she know I wanted her for that exact reason: the pregnancy. This also eats me up inside, because I can't tell her about my fetish, or else it could come off as creepy. In general, knowing there are so many single pregnant women out there eats me up aswell.
Other times I get depressed about my fetish is when I see a pregnant women in public. For example, when I was working my old job, a very hot petite 18-19 year old who didn't look pregnant said to her mom "I think the baby moved". Inside I just wanted to die. Here infront of me is just my ideal girl for getting pregnant, and it turns out she is expecting. The fact I could never share an experience with a girl like that in my life just eats me up inside. Yeah I could go get an 18-19 year old pregnant, but that's a dumb financial move for my age. I could find a single pregnant girl on a dating app, but it is INSANELY rare because most single pregnant girls on dating apps are not very attractive aside from their pregnancy. This girl was very attractive, plus she was pregnant.
To make problems even worse, I don't want kids of my own, so getting to share the amazing pregnancy experience with a wife won't be an option for me, no matter how much that depresses me. I'm really good with kids, but I know for a FACT I don't enjoy them, and there is a LONG list of other reasons. One potential way around this is I could find a women who wants to become a surrogate, that way I don't have kids of my own but still get to experience the pregnancy. The issue with this is I believe surrogates have to already carry a child before becoming a surrogate. Maybe I'd have to find a single mom who already has a kid then.
Things might get a little better, because I am planning on moving out from Massachusetts to Orange County California after college. It is a pretty expensive area, so I don't think there will be many single pregnant women on dating apps. But it will also be close to LA and even San Diego, so hopefully my online dating search for pregnant women will become easier. Furthermore, I would be able to drive further distances as I won't be living with my parents and they won't be worried about where I am. The issue is, after college I will be 22, a little older and making it harder to meet up with a pregnant teen, a sexual dream of mine (obviously one who is 18+ tho, I'm not a creep).
I'm really hoping to find therapy, yet so many therapists near me who deal with fetishes or sex therapy are fully booked with clients. I feel like my pregnancy fetish depression will be eliminated once I enjoy quality time with just one hot pregnant girl. Then I can say I can "die happy" and move on with my life and not be addicted to searching for pregnant women for hours on end on dating apps each day. Just having a therapist to talk to about these problems would be also be great, because I never tell anyone about these problems so I can never get them off my chest and get advice. In general, not to offend anyone who takes pride in their fetish. but I feel ASTROMINICALLY UNLUCKY to have to deal with this fetish my entire life. I hate living with it. Idk where I'm getting at with this post, just wanted to come out about my fetish since I've never done it before. I would heavily appreciate any advice, critiques, experiences, etc. Thank you so much, I appreciate your time.
What eats me up inside the most is the fact I can successfully hookup or date a hot girl from a dating app, yet have 0 success with the MANY pregnant women I've texted on dating apps. Like these single pregnant women tell me I'm sweet, text back and fourth, and think I'm cute, yet when it comes down to hanging out... it never happens. I honestly couldn't tell you why, sometimes there's a distinct reason, but most of the time there isn't. This is why I am so depressed about it, because these perfect opportunities that CLEARLY are attracted to me REFUSE to hangout! Obviously they don't have to hangout with me, it just makes me depressed I've had 0 success with the amount of opportunities I've had. Eventually time runs out, they give birth, and I cry and feel defeated. Another opportunity down the drain that would've EASILY met up with me if they weren't pregnant. Yeah I'm lucky I can hookup with non-pregnant hot girls, but it's not very enjoyable to me because they aren't pregnant, it's hard to describe. I have meet up with one pregnant women, but at the time I was inexperienced and didn't make the move to fuck her. She told me I was way too good looking and I'm wasting my time with a pregnant girl like her, yet little did she know I wanted her for that exact reason: the pregnancy. This also eats me up inside, because I can't tell her about my fetish, or else it could come off as creepy. In general, knowing there are so many single pregnant women out there eats me up aswell.
Other times I get depressed about my fetish is when I see a pregnant women in public. For example, when I was working my old job, a very hot petite 18-19 year old who didn't look pregnant said to her mom "I think the baby moved". Inside I just wanted to die. Here infront of me is just my ideal girl for getting pregnant, and it turns out she is expecting. The fact I could never share an experience with a girl like that in my life just eats me up inside. Yeah I could go get an 18-19 year old pregnant, but that's a dumb financial move for my age. I could find a single pregnant girl on a dating app, but it is INSANELY rare because most single pregnant girls on dating apps are not very attractive aside from their pregnancy. This girl was very attractive, plus she was pregnant.
To make problems even worse, I don't want kids of my own, so getting to share the amazing pregnancy experience with a wife won't be an option for me, no matter how much that depresses me. I'm really good with kids, but I know for a FACT I don't enjoy them, and there is a LONG list of other reasons. One potential way around this is I could find a women who wants to become a surrogate, that way I don't have kids of my own but still get to experience the pregnancy. The issue with this is I believe surrogates have to already carry a child before becoming a surrogate. Maybe I'd have to find a single mom who already has a kid then.
Things might get a little better, because I am planning on moving out from Massachusetts to Orange County California after college. It is a pretty expensive area, so I don't think there will be many single pregnant women on dating apps. But it will also be close to LA and even San Diego, so hopefully my online dating search for pregnant women will become easier. Furthermore, I would be able to drive further distances as I won't be living with my parents and they won't be worried about where I am. The issue is, after college I will be 22, a little older and making it harder to meet up with a pregnant teen, a sexual dream of mine (obviously one who is 18+ tho, I'm not a creep).
I'm really hoping to find therapy, yet so many therapists near me who deal with fetishes or sex therapy are fully booked with clients. I feel like my pregnancy fetish depression will be eliminated once I enjoy quality time with just one hot pregnant girl. Then I can say I can "die happy" and move on with my life and not be addicted to searching for pregnant women for hours on end on dating apps each day. Just having a therapist to talk to about these problems would be also be great, because I never tell anyone about these problems so I can never get them off my chest and get advice. In general, not to offend anyone who takes pride in their fetish. but I feel ASTROMINICALLY UNLUCKY to have to deal with this fetish my entire life. I hate living with it. Idk where I'm getting at with this post, just wanted to come out about my fetish since I've never done it before. I would heavily appreciate any advice, critiques, experiences, etc. Thank you so much, I appreciate your time.