Help me! I want to tell my boyfriend about my fetish.
Some backgroud: I am 23 and I have been with my boyfriend for about 2 years. He's 25. I am (was) on birth control for 3 years! Unfortunately the last time I went to my pharmacy to get my Rx, they messed it up and gave me the wrong brand. You wouldn't think that would be a big deal but it changed my cycle, so I had to stop using birth control for a month until I could restart it properly. During that month, my boyfriend and I had unprotected sex 3 times. He was aware I was temporarily off birth control. He used the "pull out" method. I secretly hoped it would fail each time. I pretended I wanted to be cautious but I really wanted him to just fill me up and knock me up.
(by the way I am on it because I have cysts on my ovaries and birth control helps with the pain they cause)
Fast forward to a week ago. I was 6 days late for my period and for his sake I pretended to be freaking out a little. Honestly, a part of me really wanted to be pregnant. I told a few people at work that I might be pregnant and I absolutely loved the attention I was getting. My boyfriend was supportive (also optimistic that I was not pregnant) and would kiss me and cuddle me to make me feel better. And he doesn't do it often but when he puts his hand on my belly, it really gets me going. Even though we were in the middle of a pregnancy "scare" we had spontaneous sex on the couch and I have to say, it was the best sex of my life. The thought that "This is it. I could actually be pregnant. I'm going to grow and get so much loving attention" got me so wet.
Here is my problem, and maybe I'm a terrible person. I do not want kids right now. We are just starting out in a house we can barley afford and not even engaged. We do not want kids until we're in our 30's just because we are realistic and know we can't take care of a child right now. I wanted to be pregnant so badly, but give the child up for adoption. That's where my head is at. And I feel so terrible.
Anyway, I ended up getting my period and I was just like "ahh well".
So since that was the best sex I've ever had (thinking I actually was pregnant) should I tell him my desire to roll play? I have no idea how he would react. I'm afraid he will think I will try to get pregnant on purpose to trap him or something. He recently told me a desire he has in bed (he was drunk but hey he still told me didn't he lol) and sure it isnt something I WANT to do for him, but I love him so I'm willing to do it.
So when ad how should I tell him??? HELP ME
Some backgroud: I am 23 and I have been with my boyfriend for about 2 years. He's 25. I am (was) on birth control for 3 years! Unfortunately the last time I went to my pharmacy to get my Rx, they messed it up and gave me the wrong brand. You wouldn't think that would be a big deal but it changed my cycle, so I had to stop using birth control for a month until I could restart it properly. During that month, my boyfriend and I had unprotected sex 3 times. He was aware I was temporarily off birth control. He used the "pull out" method. I secretly hoped it would fail each time. I pretended I wanted to be cautious but I really wanted him to just fill me up and knock me up.
(by the way I am on it because I have cysts on my ovaries and birth control helps with the pain they cause)
Fast forward to a week ago. I was 6 days late for my period and for his sake I pretended to be freaking out a little. Honestly, a part of me really wanted to be pregnant. I told a few people at work that I might be pregnant and I absolutely loved the attention I was getting. My boyfriend was supportive (also optimistic that I was not pregnant) and would kiss me and cuddle me to make me feel better. And he doesn't do it often but when he puts his hand on my belly, it really gets me going. Even though we were in the middle of a pregnancy "scare" we had spontaneous sex on the couch and I have to say, it was the best sex of my life. The thought that "This is it. I could actually be pregnant. I'm going to grow and get so much loving attention" got me so wet.
Here is my problem, and maybe I'm a terrible person. I do not want kids right now. We are just starting out in a house we can barley afford and not even engaged. We do not want kids until we're in our 30's just because we are realistic and know we can't take care of a child right now. I wanted to be pregnant so badly, but give the child up for adoption. That's where my head is at. And I feel so terrible.
Anyway, I ended up getting my period and I was just like "ahh well".
So since that was the best sex I've ever had (thinking I actually was pregnant) should I tell him my desire to roll play? I have no idea how he would react. I'm afraid he will think I will try to get pregnant on purpose to trap him or something. He recently told me a desire he has in bed (he was drunk but hey he still told me didn't he lol) and sure it isnt something I WANT to do for him, but I love him so I'm willing to do it.
So when ad how should I tell him??? HELP ME