This is going to be my intro, but I thought it would be better to make it outside of the intro threads for the sake of not hijacking them.
So, firstly, I'm a long time lurker despite having a new account. I never really felt the need to post given the nature of this site, but something's changed for me in the last few months. I've realized that in addition to the usual fetish, I've been experiencing gender dysphoria. I grew up with not just an admiration for pregnant women but also a desire to be pregnant myself.
It simply hasn't dawned on me while fantasizing about being pregnant that I want to be a woman. I sort of thought to myself that since men can't get pregnant it was just that - a fantasy. I remember at one point in my life desperately searching online for whether it was possible for men, and when I found something that had explained a couple of potential methods and that the likelihood of either of them being successful was damn near impossible I resigned it to that realm.
I suppose I'm old enough that my libido has allowed for more nurturing instincts to be at the forefront of my mind, but during a bout of envy over women's ability to bond with their babies as they're growing inside them I said to myself "I wish I was born a woman." That phrasing alone was enough to allow myself to start imagining myself as a woman without feeling disgusted at being too weird, and as I explored these thoughts and reflected on memories of my past self, especially the times when I would pretend to be pregnant, I began to recognize that all of this was signs of gender dysphoria. So, I started asking myself what transitioning would entail, and after a lot of reading and quite a lot of soul searching I think I can honestly say I'm more in favor than not for going through with it, albeit with lingering feelings of anxiety and doubt. The big question, of course (and the metaphorical icing on the cake for me) is whether a trans woman can get pregnant. After reading that there have now been women who received uterus transplants and successfully carried babies to term, and medical experts expressing their optimism that the same could be done for trans women, compared to the outlook from back when I first looked into the possibility, I feel pretty confident that it will be available within my lifetime. At least, I'm willing to gamble that it will be.
So, the reason I'm suddenly deciding to be so scribbly on the forum after lurking for so long is that I feel confused and would like help. I can tell there are a handful of people on the internet who are like me, (hopefully some on here reading this) and I have to ask them "What has helped you?" If you're a woman, please help me learn all the tips and tricks of beauty regimes, because my hair is unmanageable. I'm also finally interested in sharing content instead of just downloading - I might have some things in my collection that have either not been seen or have been "lost" from HD crashes and the passage of time and I'd like to trade. I also have to ask, if and when I do get pregnant, is this something people would be interested in? I've seen some other mtf trans post pretend pregnancy images on tumblr and such, and I'm just curious if there's an audience for that since this doesn't seem much of an mpreg site.
Anyways, feel free to ask me questions.
So, firstly, I'm a long time lurker despite having a new account. I never really felt the need to post given the nature of this site, but something's changed for me in the last few months. I've realized that in addition to the usual fetish, I've been experiencing gender dysphoria. I grew up with not just an admiration for pregnant women but also a desire to be pregnant myself.
It simply hasn't dawned on me while fantasizing about being pregnant that I want to be a woman. I sort of thought to myself that since men can't get pregnant it was just that - a fantasy. I remember at one point in my life desperately searching online for whether it was possible for men, and when I found something that had explained a couple of potential methods and that the likelihood of either of them being successful was damn near impossible I resigned it to that realm.
I suppose I'm old enough that my libido has allowed for more nurturing instincts to be at the forefront of my mind, but during a bout of envy over women's ability to bond with their babies as they're growing inside them I said to myself "I wish I was born a woman." That phrasing alone was enough to allow myself to start imagining myself as a woman without feeling disgusted at being too weird, and as I explored these thoughts and reflected on memories of my past self, especially the times when I would pretend to be pregnant, I began to recognize that all of this was signs of gender dysphoria. So, I started asking myself what transitioning would entail, and after a lot of reading and quite a lot of soul searching I think I can honestly say I'm more in favor than not for going through with it, albeit with lingering feelings of anxiety and doubt. The big question, of course (and the metaphorical icing on the cake for me) is whether a trans woman can get pregnant. After reading that there have now been women who received uterus transplants and successfully carried babies to term, and medical experts expressing their optimism that the same could be done for trans women, compared to the outlook from back when I first looked into the possibility, I feel pretty confident that it will be available within my lifetime. At least, I'm willing to gamble that it will be.
So, the reason I'm suddenly deciding to be so scribbly on the forum after lurking for so long is that I feel confused and would like help. I can tell there are a handful of people on the internet who are like me, (hopefully some on here reading this) and I have to ask them "What has helped you?" If you're a woman, please help me learn all the tips and tricks of beauty regimes, because my hair is unmanageable. I'm also finally interested in sharing content instead of just downloading - I might have some things in my collection that have either not been seen or have been "lost" from HD crashes and the passage of time and I'd like to trade. I also have to ask, if and when I do get pregnant, is this something people would be interested in? I've seen some other mtf trans post pretend pregnancy images on tumblr and such, and I'm just curious if there's an audience for that since this doesn't seem much of an mpreg site.
Anyways, feel free to ask me questions.
