How's everyone doing today? Had a rough week but am feeling better, if a little lonely.

Solid 6/10 week. Started a new job recently but currently it means I have little time for my hobbies.

Sore, stiff and achy, but other than that okay.
A bit lonely, missing parts of my family that aren't nearby (I don't drive for medical reasons), people which have not seen in more than five years - but that will change towards the end of this month.

Much more better since I’ve been taking antidepressants, feeling more motivated and confident. I still need a therapist to screech about my first world problems to but still, feeling better.

(December 4, 2021, 12:41 pm)MrCoolesta Much more better since I’ve been taking antidepressants, feeling more motivated and confident. I still need a therapist to screech about my first world problems to but still, feeling better.

Glad to here that

(December 4, 2021, 12:41 pm)MrCoolesta Much more better since I’ve been taking antidepressants, feeling more motivated and confident. I still need a therapist to screech about my first world problems to but still, feeling better.

I make the same kind of jokes about myself and my worries but honestly, it's amazing how much it helps to have someone listen and reflect. Therapy has been very good for me.

Over the past months I've had a lot of changes in my personal life... a lot of loss and change. It's been difficult. But there have also been some very bright spots which have reminded me that none of us knows what the fuck is coming next and there's a chance it'll be an improvement. That's not even me being a hopeless optimist, it's just the truth. We don't know.

Good idea for a thread, by the way.

I'm dealing with a lot of frustrating stuff that started about a couple of months ago. The biggest thing that is stressing me out is the possibility of losing my apartment which has been hanging over my head ever since the rent moratorium ended. I applied for assistance but it is taking forever to hear something back. When I last checked the website it said my application had been converted. I'm not sure what that means however I need to get something soon. Management notified me a couple of weeks ago that they turned my file over to their attorney which means the eviction process is underway. I've attempted to speak to the attorney and let him know I'm waiting to hear back from the assistance program but it seems like he doesn't want to talk to me. I get the run around every time from the receptionist.

"He's at lunch."
"He's not in right now."
"I'll tell him you called."

Anyway, I can't help feeling like the walls are closing in on me which makes me very depressed. I'm not sure how this is going to play out. In the meantime, I've been trying to keep busy with my job and making content for my DA page as a distraction. The covid lockdown screwed me. I haven't recovered, to be honest. I fell behind on all of my bills. Life is a bitch and hey at least I'm not dying of cancer but the prospect of becoming a homeless statistic and losing everything I own feels just as bad.

I'm doing okay, thank you. I saw my brother for the first time in three months last weekend (he lives 240 miles away) which cheered me up a bit and now I'm just looking forward to the Christmas break to have some much needed time off work.

I think most of us can say the last near-two years has got most people down, myself included. I just want it all this business to be over with. I do suffer from occasional bouts of anxiety and depression anyway (I'm currently on my fourth course of Fluoxetine in my lifetime) but this really has been a time which, putting it very politely, could be best described as...'character building'.

Doing okay for the most part. It's been a good year, to say the least. Finally graduated after 10 years of trying to get my engineering degree and now trying to (1) escape my parents' house for a place of my own and (2) get a software engineer or developer job so I can break into the tech industry.

My biggest mental challenge right now is to not get too hung up on being single for the last 5 years. I've had my share of dates since my last relationship, with a few standouts, but no one has even got far enough to seriously consider me as a long-term partner. As understanding as I am of how challenging it is for me to keep a woman's attention and attraction right now, it's still a bit frustrating. I see old high school colleagues, college classmates, and other people of experiences' past and see relationships, families, marriages in some cases...and I'm lead to believe why I can't find this for myself....the fact that I'm nothing more than somebody women date once and never see again is a BUMMER. I'm trying to do things that'll clear my mind away from it...from gym runs to hanging with friends to some travel here and there when possible. I know I can do this...I just need to keep at it.

I'm not good really. Feeling my life is going to get worse.