I hate having everything I've ever desired since childhood be so possible yet so unobtainable. I have a womb, I have ovaries. Could I get as pregnant as I write or read about? Obviously not. But I would be grateful just to carry one and least one time.
But realistically I'm not a good candidate to have children and adoption isn't a simple matter. I don't think I could grow a baby for nine months and give it up, it would be mental torture. And even if I could it's really immoral to create a baby just for a physical desire and then abandon it. I could end up pregnant with triplets and while that sounds like A FUCKING DREAM COME TRUE, that's three lives I've created.
One day my ovaries will dry up and I'll have never experienced pregnancy. Imagine having some crazy fetish like you want to fuck a dinosaur and it's impossible, will never happen. Now imagine having your fetish be not only legal but very much possible, but you simply cannot ever indulge in it. Imagine walking through the desert and finding an oasis that's actually there, it's not a mirage, and you simply can't get to it. And as the clock ticks it slips farther away until my life is nothing but regret because I never got to have a huge pregnant belly covered in stretch marks (I love them) and matching lactating tits. I never got to feel a baby kick and stretch my lips over its head. I'd trade being a multi millionaire hugely successful and influential person for being a baby factory. I wish I could have been pregnant from my teen years and pop em out every year. I wish I could just experience it once, so badly, so fucking badly. Of course I wish more than anything pregnancy stories were possible. Hyper pregnancy, Quintuplets and Growing, that about sums up my dream life. Or The Baby Explosion, holy fuck the ending being pregnant with thousands of babies and getting gallons of cum pumped into me and thinking about nothing but breeding. I'd be so grateful just to carry one but if I got triplets I'd cry in happiness every day. I'd be constantly oiling and rubbing the fuck out of my belly and I'd share pictures of it proudly with everyone here. I WANT the pains, the aches, stretch marks, I want to be kept up all night by my babies kicking hard and stretching, I want my belly to make me as uncomfortable as possible.
I'm so desperate I've actually been trying to induce a psuedo pregnancy. Where your belly grows huge, you get a popped navel, you lactate, you feel a baby kicking. You don't get birth but you get everything else and believe you're pregnant. Why is it I can't when the main trigger for it is desperately wanting to be pregnant? Someone on pregchan suggested I get a trusted male to sort of fake cum into me, but how can I trick my subconscious? Pregnant belly hypnosis and stuff like that hasn't been doing shit, those asshole commenters get my hopes up thinking I can be hypnotized to feel hugely pregnant and it does nothing! I listened to a subliminal loop for two freaking hours and nothing.
Sorry I just needed to vent to people who I think will understand and not judge me. I'm starting to get hardcore depressed and pregnancy obsessed worse than I ever have. I often wish I was born in the 50's or in some traditional society where I could just be pregnant all the time. Where I could be nursing with a huge pregnant belly and no end in sight. I absolutely want to be nothing more than a living baby factory, dedicating my entire life to making as many babies as I can.
But realistically I'm not a good candidate to have children and adoption isn't a simple matter. I don't think I could grow a baby for nine months and give it up, it would be mental torture. And even if I could it's really immoral to create a baby just for a physical desire and then abandon it. I could end up pregnant with triplets and while that sounds like A FUCKING DREAM COME TRUE, that's three lives I've created.
One day my ovaries will dry up and I'll have never experienced pregnancy. Imagine having some crazy fetish like you want to fuck a dinosaur and it's impossible, will never happen. Now imagine having your fetish be not only legal but very much possible, but you simply cannot ever indulge in it. Imagine walking through the desert and finding an oasis that's actually there, it's not a mirage, and you simply can't get to it. And as the clock ticks it slips farther away until my life is nothing but regret because I never got to have a huge pregnant belly covered in stretch marks (I love them) and matching lactating tits. I never got to feel a baby kick and stretch my lips over its head. I'd trade being a multi millionaire hugely successful and influential person for being a baby factory. I wish I could have been pregnant from my teen years and pop em out every year. I wish I could just experience it once, so badly, so fucking badly. Of course I wish more than anything pregnancy stories were possible. Hyper pregnancy, Quintuplets and Growing, that about sums up my dream life. Or The Baby Explosion, holy fuck the ending being pregnant with thousands of babies and getting gallons of cum pumped into me and thinking about nothing but breeding. I'd be so grateful just to carry one but if I got triplets I'd cry in happiness every day. I'd be constantly oiling and rubbing the fuck out of my belly and I'd share pictures of it proudly with everyone here. I WANT the pains, the aches, stretch marks, I want to be kept up all night by my babies kicking hard and stretching, I want my belly to make me as uncomfortable as possible.
I'm so desperate I've actually been trying to induce a psuedo pregnancy. Where your belly grows huge, you get a popped navel, you lactate, you feel a baby kicking. You don't get birth but you get everything else and believe you're pregnant. Why is it I can't when the main trigger for it is desperately wanting to be pregnant? Someone on pregchan suggested I get a trusted male to sort of fake cum into me, but how can I trick my subconscious? Pregnant belly hypnosis and stuff like that hasn't been doing shit, those asshole commenters get my hopes up thinking I can be hypnotized to feel hugely pregnant and it does nothing! I listened to a subliminal loop for two freaking hours and nothing.
Sorry I just needed to vent to people who I think will understand and not judge me. I'm starting to get hardcore depressed and pregnancy obsessed worse than I ever have. I often wish I was born in the 50's or in some traditional society where I could just be pregnant all the time. Where I could be nursing with a huge pregnant belly and no end in sight. I absolutely want to be nothing more than a living baby factory, dedicating my entire life to making as many babies as I can.