Just found out about two weeks ago she was pregnant and due very soon. Well...... she had the baby. she was the first one I ever told I even had this fetish and kind of embraced it. She used to get me going by asking me to imagine what it would be like when she was big carrying our kid....It's one of those things were I know we probably wouldn't have worked. But fuck it doesn't make it sting any less. Not sure why I am sharing this here. Just getting it out I guess. .... and now I have the fear that one day I'll be looking at this shit and somehow I'll see a photo of her in some collection. I couldn't think of anything that could possibly break my heart more....

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I'm really sorry to hear about that man. I'm totally in love with this girl but we are in completely different places in life. I'm pretty sure it won't be long before she finds someone more worthy of her and gets pregnant. I was never with this girl but I've been crazy about her for 6 years.

(August 15, 2017, 11:49 pm)plaugevii Just found out about two weeks ago she was pregnant and due very soon. Well...... she had the baby. she was the first one I ever told I even had this fetish and kind of embraced it. She used to get me going by asking me to imagine what it would be like when she was big carrying our kid....It's one of those things were I know we probably wouldn't have worked. But fuck it doesn't make it sting any less. Not sure why I am sharing this here. Just getting it out I guess. .... and now I have the fear that one day I'll be looking at this shit and somehow I'll see a photo of her in some collection. I couldn't think of anything that could possibly break my heart more....

I am so sorry to hear that. I know that it hurts when a girl you had a crush on has a baby, but it must be even harder when it was a girl you loved.
All I can say is try to stay positive. Obviously there is a reason you aren't with her: she isn't for you! You will find the girl that you are supposed to be with and you will look back and be happy that you didn't get that other girl pregnant because you wouldn't have found the love of your life!
Good luck and feel better, buddy!

Interestingly, I'm on the other side of this. I'm married with two kids and both of my serious exes from the days of yore are still single. A couple of years ago one of them (the one I would have married if the relationship had lasted long enough) confided that she regretted dumping me because she wasn't at the place in her life that she wanted to be by her age and that she probably would be if she had stayed with me. I didn't really know how to respond to that.

I tell this story to say that this girl was my "One That Got Away" and things turned out pretty well for me anyway. Keep your head up and don't dwell on her. Feeling sorry for yourself is the absolute worst thing you can do.

This will probably be hard to believe, but that whole "one who got away" thing can be completely blown away by the introduction of one incredible person into your life. My ex-wife left me after what I'd call a pretty long marriage, and for a week or so I made myself sick feeling sorry for myself and worrying about her having some other guy's kid someday, etc. It's hard to adjust after so long together. Fast forward not even two years and somehow I managed to find someone who was, well, an upgrade from my ex in every way imaginable. Now I don't care what that woman does with her life, and I wish her the best.

My point is that life is ridiculous and your mileage may vary. I sincerely hope you find someone or something that takes your mind off that girl.

Thanks all. I'm not going to let myself wallow anymore. I spent way too long carrying a torch for someone who honestly didn't deserve it. It's just something that hurts and I gotta just find a way to deal.